Anxiety of Being Mommy Again!

As I countdown there are just a mere few days until baby #3 arrives. I am becoming more anxious, I don't feel like I have had enough time to prepare since I found out when I was halfway through my pregnancy. Sometimes feeling like I haven't done this before....being a mom. I think with every little one I've had this feeling because again I have been given the task to provide, raise, and mold into what God has called them to be. I want to make sure that each of my little ones know that I don't love anyone of them more than the other and they all are special to me and I love them immensely.

These past few days I feel like I'm not ready to bring this baby home, my house is still a mess but in much better shape than when I brought home baby #2. I am a person that likes organization, routines, and back up plan to my plans. Everytime I turn around I feel as if something else needs to be baby proofed even better.

I am not saying everything won't workout the way it is supposed to but these past few days. I am just second guessing myself and putting too much stress on myself which I shouldn't be doing. Mom guilting myself because I will have to learn how to still take care of now 3 beautiful babies and get into a good routine with all 3 babies but also make sure I am taking care of myself because that is important.

Today I had to really remind myself that the house will never be completely clean the way I want it because I have little ones to take care that come first before any mess. A mess can always be cleaned up but the moments of watching them grow and learn by what I teach them is a short amount of time.

I am just praying over then next few days the areas where I feel as if I am lacking God will step in, to provide and give me the peace I need to push through just one more day of motherhood.