These past two months have seemed like an earthquake where everything has been tossed up in the air and dismantled beyond repair. Struggling with being hurt and broken all at the same time. Getting through being hurt by loved ones, unexpectedly loosing family members within a few weeks of each other, being laid off due to unforeseen circumstances, transitioning from being a working mom to a stay at home mom, is a lot to handle all at once. Going back and forth in your mind saying "I forgive you," but knowing you are still really hurt and sometimes your actions don't show that you have forgiven. When the fears of being an inadequate mother flood your mind it is a scary thought. No one has it all together, no one is perfect. What do you do with all of these hardships? Knowing you will never be enough and being okay with it all. Also knowing you do have a source who is perfect and forever has your best interests at heart. Praying, reading my bible, and seeking God has been the only consistent relief I have found.
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